HATE and then a little love.

I hate you so much. Now, I rarely use the word hate. It is such a strong word and I think offensive word. But sometimes there is no way around it, when you dislike something SO much.

My hates:

Raw stand alone tomatoes- I keep trying you because I think I will like you, but it never happens.

Spiders. I don't even try.

Heights.

Horrible Parents. The things they have done to these children are disgusting. My heart aches.

Negative people. Once again, I am a hypocrite.

Hypocrites. :- )

Drama. Unless it is entertaining drama, and we all know that's drama that doesn't involve yourself.

My Doggy going through separation anxiety. Randomly shitting on our carpet and chewing baby toys ONLY when we are gone.

I think that is all. Maybe for my next post it will everything I love. Here is a sneak peak:

I love that TAKS testing is almost done. Fifth grade takes Science tomorrow. I have a few taking the retakes in May.

I love that in four weeks I will be done.

I love having a friend across the hallway from me! I will miss her when she moves to the other hallway!

I love that I have gotten to work at the same school as my husband for four years now.

I love that I have a summer vacation. PS I need you now before I dissolve into nothing.

I love that whenever I think I need a different job, there is nothing else (besides being a SAHM) that I would rather do.

I love my Drew's smile and laugh when I tickle him!

Got God on the Brain Tonight

"If you never encounter the devil on your daily walk it may be that you are walking in the same direction."

My mom, yes my mom, had this quote on her Facebook status. It meant a lot to me today, opened my eyes a little wider. I have not been a faithful church goer, but I have not relied on going to church "religiously" for spiritual growth, for he is in your heart and not a building, however, recently I have felt a calling to find a home church and small group, which I am on that quest.

Acts 17:24 ²⁴"The God who made the world and everything in it is the Lord of heaven and earth and does not live in temples built by hands.

I have been a christian since the seventh grade. Ever since then He has always been in my heart, I may of strayed here or there but always find my way back and strive to be a better sheppard. At one point in my life I was hurt by many Christians who I would of considered mentors. This has put an anger in me that I am working on. With this event I have been cautious of many different churches noticing first judgment and hypocrisy. Which is interesting because in this I am being judgmental and a hypocrite. Christians who acted righteous ran me away.

Anyways, I know I am sinful, we are all sinful. But today I opened my eyes in what ways I am sinning. Some of us think we didn't sin at all today, there is nothing to repent in our evening prayers. When in fact, we gossiped, failed to take an opportunity to witness, didn't help some one in need, etc.

“Don’t you know that you yourselves are God’s temple and that God’s Spirit lives in you? If anyone destroys God’s temple, God will destroy him; for God’s temple is sacred, and you are that temple.” (1 Corinthians 3:16,17) And “Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your body.” ( 1 Corinthians 6:19,20)

My sins today and many other days is not treating my body like God's temple. I have not been taking care of my body. Eating poorly and not exercising. Today I ate a donut, Venti Vanilla Latte, a mini cup cake, and I am sure there were some other things in there that weren't good. My quest right now is to take care of God's temple. I don't want to set my mind on loosing weight, because I usually fail miserably, so I am just going to concentrate on taking care of myself.

This past Friday I bought myself a new-to-me Treadmill from a co-worker. I have been walking on it. I tried running, which proved to me I have put this off way to long. I don't like feeling my butt and kangaroo pouch bouncing. Sorry if I gave you a horrible visual. For some reason while I was pregnant I thought it would all bounce back into place with out any work...... sigh.





ALSO,

Drew is 8 months old today! I cannot believe it. This boy is amazing in everything he does! Haha, but I am sure most mothers would say that about their adorable sons or daughters.

He seemed to take a little longer to sit up, but he is doing much better now, not flinging himself backwards as much. I would want to yell "timber" whenever he was going down!

Still no teeth, but I think those two bottom ones could break through any day. Drew does not want me anywhere near his bottom gums. The boy can scream pretty loudly and is really good at crocodile tears. As soon as I stand him up he starts laughing.

The past month he has really started to sleep through the night. It was so strange, at his 6 month well baby check, we asked about him not sleeping through the night, at this point he may of only 15-20 times. She gave us a packet about it, read it, researched some more. Was doing all the stuff they tell you too, didn't really work. Went back to our old ways and is now sleeping through the night most nights. There may be one night out of the week he wakes up.

He loves balls, puppies, and bath toys!

Here are some of our Easter pics my Dad took for us. I am blessed with such an amazing and beautiful family. No matter how many times I tried to ruin my life with bad choices God had something special in mind. I think these pictures really show what his plan was. So far........

Wordless Wednesday Copier

One Day Old

Andrew will be 8 Months this Monday.






Oh my goodness my heart may burst with love!

I wrote this three days ago and forgot to post it!

I am not an original person so I am copying a fellow blogger, who I believe got the idea from another blogger. Stream of Conscience.

When all else fails and you have writer's block, just type. I am actually at school right now, we are having DEAR time. Drop Everything And Read. I am pretty sure there are about five out of the 25 in this room who are fake reading. Though the other twenty are enjoying their books. I can understand, I hated reading until 6th grade, I think. It can be hard overcoming concentrations issues and the shortcomings in their reading skills. By this time I think the struggles in skills have so much to do with interest in materials. One day I hope they enjoying reading as much as I do.

I am still reading Book of the People. It is an excellent book but I am reading it at a bad time. Now is the most stressful time to be a teacher. 1 month and 2 weeks. I will get to play stay at home mom. Andrew is doing so many new things, I can't wait to get to play with him all day! Though, he will still be going to daycare at least 2 times a week. You still pay for it.

I am sure I have more that I can write about, I think of stuff all the time, but it escapes me. I need to keep a note pad.

iPhone, Precious and disgusting! Change to just iPhone- trying to figure out how to blog from my phone!!!!!!!!!

Pink Eye, Baby Food, and Teen at HEB

1. Pink Eye. Friday around 5 pm I noticed a little bit of green goop in Drew's little eyes. By 10 pm it became progressively worse . I had checked in on him around this time to see how he was doing. Right then he spit up so I picked him up and saw that both eyes were completely covered is bright green goop. yuck. The poor guy couldn't even open his eyes. I walked in our room, Ryan was already asleep, woke him up and said we are going to the ER. I did not want to wait till Monday when the offices open. We were in and out in 30 minutes with a prescription and headed towards a 24 hours pharmacy. By Saturday he was doing much better. His eyes were still a little swollen but the goop had decreased dramatically.

I am still not 100% sure it was pink eye. His eye balls weren't blood shot or red, I have a had pink eye several times, a draw back from my chosen profession, and his were not quite like that. Based on my credentials (internet research ; } ) and a motherly instinct I think it was allergies to the insane amount of pollen in the air. However, I am still giving him the eye drops and have kept him away from other children just in case. He should be good for day care on Monday.

Please forgive me for not posting a picture of this disgusting mess. I did not want to gross you out too much. AKA I tried but the photo did not capture the true severity of the goop!

2. In attempt to make up my failure in breast feeding, I am making approximately 60% of my own baby food. My entire pregnancy I had absolutely no doubt that Andrew would be 100% breast fed. However, I did not take into consideration the roller coaster of emotions and the physical process of recouping from a difficult delivery. There were many factors that led me to solely rely on formula by the time Andrew was 6 weeks old. Now, I do not regret giving up breastfeeding, I just wish I knew how difficult it was going to be.

I have made the basics like squash, sweet potato, Apples, pears, and bananas. Peas and Green beans never really worked out for me, I couldn't get the consistency right. I buy those jarred now. I am trying to break out and make a variety of things for Andrew to try. Two weeks ago I made a Butternut Squash and Apple Bake. Today I am making a Butternut Squash and Potato Mash and a Steamed mixture of Zucchini, Cauliflower, and Apple.

I love this website:
http://www.wholesomebabyfood.com/index.htm

In the next two weeks, I am going to be thinking on how to make some protein baby food. I was looking at jars in the grocery store and some ingredients start to take a down fall when it comes to the meat jars. I will probably start with chicken. Though, I did buy some ground turkey today so maybe I will do something with that. We will see! I will let you know how that goes.

3. Some little teen boy at HEB was being nice and helping unload my grocery cart. He concluded from its contents I had a baby. He asked how old he was and then started talking about his friends who had babies really young. He said that one was doing great and the other was having a hard time time. I replied that it must be tough to be so young with an infant knowing that it is hard when I have the best family and the easiest baby. He said ohh no they were doing great with that, one snapped back into the shape and the other was a flabby mess! Was he trying to make a point about my flabby mess???? I wouldn't think so, but I am fully aware of the baby weight that is hanging on.

Updates

So my good friend Jamie has informed me that I need to post. I guess it has been awhile. For some reason I always think of a great post while driving. I get home and see a smiling roly poly and completely forget about it.

Updates:

SCHOOL
2 Months till summer. I cannot wait. This point in the school year is the MOST stressful part of the job. So much pressure with TAKS tests. I have been thinking about applying for a transfer to teach middle school but I am unsure. I participated in my districts LA textbook selection for next years adoption and would like to use it. I also love my school but a little ready for something different. I have done the same thing for four years now and would like to gain experiences with other age groups. I am still contemplating. I would also like to begin my masters eventually. I would like to be a school librarian when I grow up.


DREW
Andrew is now 7 months old. I can't believe how fast he is growing up.
6 Month Well Baby Check
Weight- 20 lbs 12 oz (75-90th percentile)
Height- 27.5 inches (75th percentile)
Head Circumference- 17.5 inches (50-75th percentile)

Milestones:

He is running, reading novels, and playing the piano. Just kidding. Milestones kind of stress me out. I was reading this website, Baby Center, about how a 7 month old should start sorting out their toys. Needless to say, but we aren't quite there yet.

He is Rolling is all sorts of directions, back to tummy and tummy to back. I think crawling will be delayed because rolling is working quite well for him. The cable box is usually his first destination. Pretty little lights on the face of it.

He is sitting. Though he does not see much need for it. He get bored after a few minutes and FLINGS himself to the ground. One day Mama will not be behind him and he will bump his little head.

Loves to babble when we are at home. He says dadadadadada and lots of other incoherent things.

Loves loves loves a certain few toys. Leo the Lion and a couple of noisy toys. He enjoys sitting in his swing and relaxing. Jumping in the bouncy and screaming. Sitting on the back porch with Daddy enjoying the pleasant afternoons.

We went and took some blue bonnet pictures today and can't wait to see them.

Books I have recently read and not in any particular order.












Currently Reading:




Next on my nightstand:


On my wish list:


Or any other of the books by Michelle Moran