Sunday, December 28, 2008

Five weeks and Four Days

Week 5 How Big is the Baby at Five Weeks Pregnant?
Pregnancy week 5 isn't much different from pregnancy week 4. During 5 weeks pregnant your baby is still just over a millimeter long. You might say that your baby is about the size of a small grain of rice! However your baby is growing in many other ways. Vital organs continue to develop through this week.

Your Baby's Growth and Development
During the early part of this pregnancy at 5 weeks the central nervous system, muscles, bones and even the heart will begin to form. Early skeletal development is also possible at or around pregnancy week 5. Remember that every person is unique, thus their baby will develop at a different rate from others.

Perhaps the most interesting changes that are occurring during 5 weeks pregnant include those happening in the heart. During this week the heart will begin to divide into separate chambers and start pumping blood. The heart is formed from the middle layer of cells called the mesoderm. Other organs that will develop from this layer include the muscles, cartilage and bone. The primitive placenta and umbilical cord are also developing. The neural tube starts developing in the top layer of cells called the ectoderm. The skin, hair, nails and sweat glands will also develop out of this layer of cells. The lungs, intestines, thyroid and pancreas also develop from a third layer of cells called the endoderm.

Week 6 How Big is the Baby at Six Weeks Pregnant?
Your baby is growing! During pregnancy week 6 your physician will measure your baby with ultrasound, in increments referred to as "crown-rump length" which is basically the distance from the top of your baby's head to his buttocks. Your baby at 6 weeks may be anywhere from 2 to 5mm long at this point in time or roughly the size of half a baby pea. Not very big, but bigger than last week!

Your Baby's Growth and Development
Your baby is starting to look more and more like a little organic (albeit not quite human) being during pregnancy week 6. Dark spots should be forming where the eyes and nostrils will eventually take shape. There should also be small pits on the sides of the head where the ears will develop, and tiny buds that will form into the arms and legs at roughly 6 weeks pregnant. For several weeks the hands and feet will be connected by a layer of webbing between the fingers and toes. Your baby will start responding to sensory input and start moving all on his own in these next few weeks.

At 6 weeks of pregnancy the heart should now be beating at about 100 to 140 beats per minute and blood will start circulating throughout your baby's body. Your healthcare practitioner may be able to see the beating of the heartbeat during pregnancy week 6 using ultrasound, though it may still be a few weeks before the heartbeat is detectable via a Doppler device.

Did you know that your baby would actually be able to display reflexes in response to touch even by pregnancy 6 weeks? This is because the central nervous system is already developing and linking the muscles in the body with the limbs. You'll learn even more amazing facts as you follow your pregnancy week by week.

Your Growth and Development

You may start having some weight gain by 6 weeks pregnant. Most women will generally gain about 5 pounds during the entire first trimester, though some will gain more. Some women will not gain any weight during their first trimester because they are so nauseous from morning sickness. In fact it isn't uncommon to lose some weight during your first trimester.

Your waist will start to become thicker, particularly if this is not your first pregnancy. Your uterus will also be changing in size now and throughout your pregnancy.

Spotting may or may not occur in the early weeks of pregnancy. It is usually nothing to worry about, however you should always call your healthcare practitioner to report any unusual bleeding, as it may be a sign of impending miscarriage or some other problem.

Changes in You
You may be in the throws of morning sickness by 6 weeks pregnant. Morning sickness during pregnancy is perfectly normal, though some women experience a severe form of morning sickness called hyperemesis gravidarum. This is a complication of pregnancy characterized by nausea and vomiting that is severe throughout the early part of pregnancy. Hyperemesis gravidarum may require hospitalization because women affected by it may experience dehydration, electrolyte deficiencies and higher weight loss than normal. The common symptoms include rapid weight loss, a fast heartbeat, weakness and frequent vomiting.

The exact cause of this condition is unknown, though some studies suggest that younger maternal age, obesity and first time pregnancy are all potential risk factors for the condition. Typically hospitalization will be necessary to help restore fluids that you are losing through vomiting and help replace electrolytes. Your healthcare provider may also have to provide hyperalimentation through an IV line for a limited time. Your doctor may recommend additional nutritional or vitamin supplementation after your hospitalization to ensure that you are able to store up an adequate number of nutrients for your baby. Typically this condition will not have any ill effects on your baby once it is treated properly.

Your uterus is probably about the size of a plum during pregnancy at 6 weeks. During pregnancy at 6 weeks your breasts are also probably getting quite tender. Some women find even the sensation of their shirt rubbing against their breasts uncomfortable at this point in time. At some point in pregnancy, your areolas or the dark area surrounding your nipple will start to darken. Physicians aren't 100% sure why this occurs, though some believe that the darkening helps the baby find their food source that much faster after birth!

You probably haven't actually started showing yet, though you will be able to detect subtle changes in your body. Your jeans may start to fit less comfortably around the midsection. It will be quite some time however before you will actually need to purchase maternity clothes. One thing you might opt to do to extend the period of time you wear ordinary clothes is invest in one or two pairs of pants a size bigger than your normal clothing.

Friday, December 26, 2008

Feeling Pregnant

Well these "side effects" are kicking me in the behind. I feel like my uterus is doing somersaults. Could that be nausea? Super tired. Yesterday I feel asleep with 6 people talking all around me. Today I had to lay down when Ryan's family was visiting from Houston. The room started to spin, I was so tired! My pants are all ready having issues. And walking around in HEB this morning nearly took me out. First I had to use the rest room twice and could not stay in the meet department. Smelled like rotten molding foods.

Though some things to look forward to:

Morning Sickness- Hopefully never. There is nothing more entertaining for 10 and 11 year olds to watch their teacher vomit into a trash can. Which this has happened before. I choked on my coffee.

Mood Swings/ Irritability- Let me say my students just don't have a chance! haha. This may be slightly entertaining. I have been known to laugh at myself for how I reacted to things. Of course, only after the incident has happened and have recuperated from the ordeal.

Maternity Clothes- No more worrying about how fat I look!

Food Cravings- My mom thinks it will be spicy food since I can't stand it normally. Ryan thinks it will be funny if I can't stand Crab, since it is my most favorite thing ever. Right now all I want to eat is fruit. Probably why I spent so much time in the produce part of HEB this morning.

Shopping. No explanation needed. Though babies are expensive. I saw a breast pump around $250! Kind of worried to look at anything else now. At least until it is time to register for baby showers!

Besides all these points the end is what is most exciting. Honestly, I was scared and nervous when I found out I was pregnant. It is only a few months before Ryan and I were planing to start trying but it still caught me off guard. It has all slowly come into perspective. I know most people wait until their second trimester to tell people but there was no way I could do that. If I miscarry then God has other plans, and we will try again. Everything is in his control and power. I pray for the best.

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

Baby Bilski

So it is impossible for me to hold this back. Believe it or not, not sure I completely do yet, but I am pregnant! I just found out yesterday. I am four/five weeks along. Not very far at all but I couldn't imagine holding it in till 12 weeks. Ryan and I were planning on trying this summer so we don't feel completely unprepared but slightly shocked!

I feel ok. This past week I have been having tummy cramps but thought that was either 1. suppose to start 2. Too many lattes 3. who knows!

I don't even know what to say. We have been blessed. I pray that Baby Bilski grows and remains healthy.


Thursday, December 11, 2008

Writer's Block

What's on your mind?
Apparently writers block that leaves me no choice but to do a survey. Because what is really on my mind is school and all the papers I should be grading but just cant seem to even look at the pile.

Can you execute an acceptable cartwheel?
I have never once been able to do a cartwheel. Or a chin up. I suck.

Have you kissed anyone in 2008?
Oh yes I have!

Were you happy when you woke up today?
NO. I need winter break NOW. I was happy for one second when I was all warm and cozy but then realized it was 5:30 and had to get up and get ready for work.

What was the last movie you saw in theaters?
Twilight and/or Four Christmas'... can't remember which one was last.

Does it make you happy to get something in the mail?
If it is a bill: never
birthday presents and my cooking light magazine: always

What are you looking forward to this summer?
possibly starting Grad School! and being lazy on my squishy tush.

Who was the last person you took a picture with?
My dad's family Christmas pic

Are there deer heads covering any walls in your house?

Are you good at telling jokes?
Never jokes, more like witty remarks. Though Ryan says I have a quota of one a month. Sometimes I have two in one month and can relax for a while!

Can you make a dollar in change right now?
in pennies for the penny jar!

What made you cry last?
That stupid (but lovely) Jon and Kate plus 8 commercial.

Where is your cell phone?
who knows!

Do you have good eye sight?
contacts can fix almost anything

Do you think you’ll be married in 10 years?
most definitely yes

Where were you at 9pm Friday night
School Xmas party

Pick a word that begins with the first letter of your first name?

Have you ever caught anything on fire?
paper maybe?

How many times have you been to the ER?
3 times? Stomach pains in 3rd grade, REALLY bad strep throat summer before college, and once for breaking my finger...

Do you drink soda?

Have you ever been on an airplane?

Do you like your life?
yes, at times there is the "I wish" but I would never trade away any part of it.

Are you ticklish?

Do you have trust issues?
Depends who you are!

Do you believe that everything happens for a reason?

Who are you disappointed in right now and why?
one or two people here or there

Do you believe that all girls are the same?
no never.

How many months until your birthday?

Are you happy?
My husband made me happy today and I will be tomorrow because its friday, and even more so on Dec 19th. 15 days of NO WORK!

Does it bother you when your friends bring up your past mistakes to you?
YES, We live and we learn.

What are you doing tonight?
eating, reading and sleeping.

What is your favorite thing to eat with peanut butter?

Could you go out in public looking like you do now?
errrr I do have on Christmas boxers with mistletoe!

How are you feeling at this exact moment?

How late did you stay up last night and why?
11... stayed up reading.

Is there anybody you wish you could be spending time with right now?
Edward Cullen and Bella they aren't real!? Oh well I have my imagination.

How long does it take you to shower?
Depends whats on the to do list! TMI?

What was the last thing you drank?

Who was the last person you had a phone conversation with?
My Cousin Chrissy

Is there anyone you won't ever forget?
Some great friends from the past and some great co-workers. Then there is those unfortunate children that make you mental and now I'm unable to name any of my children the same name in fear of what they might become.

Do you know anyone who would drop everything to come see you?
I believe I do and I would do the same for them.

Have one best friend?
My husband, and a few of really good friends.

Who did you say 'I love you' to last?
Ryan, My Husband.

What made you sad today?
Adults childish reactions towards coworkers and children.

What were you doing 2 hours ago?
Christmas Present Shopping

Do you like pancakes?

Sunday, December 7, 2008

Already December?

Wow, I am a horrible blogger. But I don't feel too bad because others are failing as well! Life is busy busy busy. Since October it has been football, road trips, concerts, friends, family, my birthday, work, work, and a little bit more work. Nothing too extremely exciting to share. I do enjoy looking through random peoples blogs and find some interesting things. I have nothing else as of now. Hopefully once Christmas break is here I will have more time to blog about my interesting life!

Monday, October 20, 2008

I am that person that only blogs about her dog!

So the title is true. And my dog should be a model! She is gorgeous! Anyways not a whole lot going on right now, though I feel I have been pretty busy. This past Saturday we went to the UT vs MIZZOU game. Which was a ton of fun. This next weekend we are going to go see Jason Mraz. Then the next weekend is Halloween, then the next up to Lubbock for the Tech vs OSU game and pretend I am in college again. The weekend after that I am going to a wedding and my college roomie Margot and her husband, Thomas are coming into town. Then its Thanksgiving and my 25th birthday. I guess I can say that I am officially in my mid-twenties. I have too much gray hair for only being 25. This time next year I will be coloring my hair. School is busy, thats normal. Still ready The Lucky One and then a book about comprehension for school and then a book about money (my dad said he would pay me if I read it.) Hope all you are having a good week. Happy Fall!

Sunday, October 12, 2008

No Camera and Books

Ryan forgot the camera... no new pictures. So I will write about other sweet nothings.

Books I am reading: The Virgin's Lover by Philipa Gregory, and The Lucky One by Nicholas Sparks. Well I actually just finished the Virgin's Lover. This book is the third part of a series with The Other Boleyn Girl. I love the books, they are wonderful. With only a touch of smut. Well some are a little more smutty than others. And now I am on to The Lucky One. I look forward to all of Sparks books. Though I was a little disappointed in At First Sight. I love books. I love talking about books with other people so if you have ready either of these authors books let me know what you have thought of them.
The Lucky One by Nicholas Sparks: Book Cover

Any book suggestions? I have a whole pile of books to read but I always am welcome to other suggestions. Some books just get put back the the bottom of the pile.

Red Bud Isle

I have to say that if you live in the Austin Area and have a dog you must take them here! That is where I will be all morning. Look for pictures soon.

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

A trip to Colorado

Ryan and I made a quick run to Colorado for the UT vs CU football game. Before I start writing about the pictures, why is University of Colorado known as CU? Shouldn't it be UC. And then there is University of Oklahoma ... OU. Following this theme University of Texas and TU fits. Anyways. Here are some pics.

Here is a picture of some of the Rocky Mountains, going north on 25. There was a storm coming up the mountains from the other side. There was lightning too. We were almost swallowed by a beautiful town. Made me want to move there....

Here we are before the game at a cool bar in down town Denver. In my loyalty to Tech and refusal to conform I would not do a Longhorn sign. Don't worry horn fans, a few beers and I caved it. Sometimes things just don't change. Later on we got on a party bus for the drive from Denver to Boulder. Of all places, I ran into parents of a student I had. First time that has happened while drinking, and in another state!

So all of you who know me well are wondering why in the world is there burnt orange on me. Don't worry I protected myself from it. I wore a Tech shirt on underneath. Mom thought I was trying to get some beads..... Sorry to disappoint you mom but none were offered!

Here we are enjoying the UT tailgate. All the orange, I felt a little out of place but self medicated to drown the anxiety. The big screen the back ground was playing the Tech game. That made me feel a little better. This may of been one of the most boring games I have been to. Too bad I spent two days in a car to watch it. However, I had a great time!

A pretty sunset in Amarillo. We were following a front. And I was desperately ready to get to a hotel and sleep. Just a little annoyed. I believe at this exact moment I was yelling at Ryan because it was his fault the were no hotels along the highway like normal cities. Ryan looks at me says OK and turns around to take pictures of the pretty sunset. Which may of irritated me even more but a suitable hotel popped up and I told Ryan he was lucky, this time. A scary picture of me to help you imagine the looks I was giving Ryan.

I was so excited to see my babies! I hope they were just as excited to see me! We are hopefully going to make the trip again in December or February for some skiing! That will be fun to watch/teach Ryan learn how to ski!

Hope everyone is doing well. I really hope more people start to blog!!!! It is fun to read and see what everyone is up to!

Friday, September 19, 2008

Long Over Due

I know it has been forever, and I only slightly apologize. Life has been busy. Since I feel nothing overwhelmingly exciting as happened I will remain brief.

School started. Those two words should explain it all. There have been way too many after school meetings. All very important and necessary just wish all our issues would be magically solved during second period. I have had a meeting/conference every day this week afterschool till at least 4:00. Now some of you may think that is still early. By this time I have been at school for 9.25 hours on average. I have yet to grade papers, make phone calls, organize/clean my room, make sure all the preparations for the next day are done. So far this year I have only gone up on the weekends twice. Which is a miracle. I 'could work for twenty hours and still have something to do. I have decided to prioritize and go home. I can't overly stress myself out.

When I get stressed I get sick. That is how my body coopes with stress. I have had some poeple tell me that I seem to handle stress pretty well because I don't typically run around like a chicken with its head cut off. However, I handle all things iternally! Just as the Gasterologist I met with over the summer. Yuck. Anyways, I didn't even make it a full three weeks before I was home in bed with a fever of 101. I spent four days in bed or on the couch. Took two days back to work to feel like a new person. And now I feel great. I love that great feeling you get when you have recovered, makes me feel thankful!

Eric (Ryan's best man) and his wife, Tessa, joined us for 2 great weekends. The first weekend we just hung out and went to the first home UT game. I wore white. I am kind of thinking of getting my own UT shirt. Part of me says absolutely not because I know Ryan would never wear a Texas Tech tshirt. I am thinking-The second weekend we relaxed and played with their ten week old son, Hayden Ryan. Soooo absolutely beautiful. I was sick so I stayed away at all times even though I just wanted to run up to him and hold him in my arms.

This past week I have been dog sitting for my dad and step-mom. They met up with my Aunt and Uncle in Cabo for their 25th wedding anniversary! So jealous. I am soo glad to be home, to sleep in my own bed. I am sure Sophie loved being over there, constant companionship/slumber party. She is going to have a rude awaking this next week back in her crate all day. Their internet wasn't working so I felt a bid deprived of all my sites that would of been blocked at work i.e. facebook myspace blogs, etc.

Now I am tired, swee dreams.

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Comic Relief

So, this week I have felt the need for some comic relief in the work place. This made me feel better.

Workplace Excellence cartoon

Click on this one to see the whole thing.

Everyone has to find outlet for stress! Four days until the students show up.

Thursday, August 14, 2008

Back To Work

Monday I am officially back on contract and at school. Though I still have till the 25th before class begins. We have a week of inservices and time to work out all the workings of an elementary school. I believe that I am a little apprehensive about going back because May stress and exhaustion is still fresh in my mind. I thought by this time I would feel more rested and energized. God knows that for the last 11 weeks I have spent on my tush in the great recliner my dad handed down to me. I have spent many hours reading tons of books, surfing the web, playing the Sophie (yes she is in the recliner with me), watching tv/movies, taking naps and brainstorming ideas for the new school year. Though I did spend many hours on my mom's porch, which for some reason always feels 10 degrees cooler than what it actually is, and at the dog park. Don't get me wrong, I am excited for all the new additions and changes that have occured at our school, and there have been may, but I feel like I need just two more weeks and I will be fully recuperated from the last school year. Though at the end of the two weeks I may just say I need another two weeks. Though I am excited about a routine. I have been with out one for way too long. My daily routine being waking up at 5:15 to take the dog out and get ready for the day, go to work, work some more, get home at 5, cook/eat dinner, force myself to work out (that's the tricky one), read/TV/draw/grade papers/play with puppy and go to sleep. It gets repetitive but I feel comfortable and productive.

Some changes for this school year include lots of younger teachers, a new principal, new vice principal, and I am Fifth grade team leader. I have enjoyed working with every single one of my current and previous co-wrokers. They have all taught me a lot about the educational field. However I have always been the youngest by at least 15 years. There have been some other teachers around my age in other grade levels that I have had a great time getting to know and became good friends but I am excited to say that our school has hired 7 or 10 younger/new teachers. I am so excited to get the chance to work with some girls closer to my age range. We have a new principal and vice principal at our school this year. I was scared about another big change but meeting with them and discussing different issues I know they will be great and we will have a good year with them as admistrators. And finally, I am the fifth grade team leader. I am not sure if this is considered a promotion or not, but there is no pay raise and there are more responsibilities. I am confident that I will do well but I can be a bit passive aggressive and I think I will have to step out of my little comfort zone to some people. We will see!

This past week I have been going up to school and working in my room. I think I have all the walls/bulletins/ my desk/book shelves completed. I still have some organizing with my classroom library and student desks and text books. I want to get all this stuff done before next week so that I am not overwhelmed and prepared to help/meet with other people on our campus. I have some pics of my room last year. I hope it doesn't get this crowded and cluttered this year. I will post new pics of the room as soon as my room is done.

Good luck to my fellow teachers in the new school year. I am sure our blogs will all happen less frequently!

Monday, August 11, 2008

How Much Have I Changed In 8 Years?

8 Yrs ago:

1) How old were you? 16

2) Where did you go to school? McNeil HS

3) Where did you work? Sonic

4) Where did you live? Austin/Round Rock

5) Where did you hang out? Taco C, The Pool, Friends Houses

6) Did you wear contacts? Yes

7) Who was your best friend? I had a lot of really good friends

8) How many tattoos did you have? 0

9) How many piercings did you have? 4 - two in each ear

10) Did you drive a car? 94 Honda Accord

11) Had you been to a real party? No

12) Had you had your heart broken? Yes but only because of some choices I made

13) Were you Single/Taken/Married/Divorced? A little bit of taken and single

14) Any Kids? No

***4 years ago***

1) How old were you? 20

2) Where did you go to school? Texas Tech.... Get your guns up!

3) Where did you work? I did some babysitting, taught swim lessons and was a substitute teacher

4) Where did you live? Lubbock, TX

5) Did you wear glasses? Only when I didn't have my contacts in

6) Who were your best friends? Margot, Courtney, and Reagan with a lot of other good friends!

8) How many tattoos did you have? 0

9) How many piercings? five, all in the ears

10) What car did you drive? Same 94 honda... At this point the air conditioning broke and it smelled like burnt rubber!

11) Had your heart been broken? Yes

12) Were you Single/Taken/Married/Divorce? A little bit of taken and single

13) Any Kids? N0, But my fat cat Diego does count.

*****Today: August 11, 2008*****

1) How old are you? 24

2) What do you do? Fifth grade teacher

3) Where do you live? Round Rock

4) Do you wear glasses? Only when I take my contacts out.

5) Who are your closest friends? The same girls and some great teaching buddies!

7) How many piercings do you have? same

8) How many tattoos? 0

9) What kind of car do you have? 2005 Toyota Corolla

10) Has your heart been broken? It is healed and loved and loving lots

11) Single/taken/married/divorced? Happily Married

12) Any Children? 2 a boy( fat cat Diego) and a girl (my sweet puppy Sophie)

In 8 years **** August 11th, 2016 ****

1) How old will you be? 32

2) What do you plan to do do? Teaching for sure. Maybe middle school and possible working on my masters for administration or school library media

3) Where do you plan to live? In a house somewhere inRound Rock

4) Will you wear glasses? Maybe get Lasic, may need reading glasses because I will be SOOOO old! haha

5) Who will be your closest friends? I am sure that I will meet wonderful people along the way but hopefully keep ties to the great girls I know now!

7) How many piercings do you think you will have? same

8) How many tattoos? 0- Ryan is very against tattoos. But I probably wouldn't get one anyways.

9) What kind of car do you want? One with good gas millage!

10) Will your heart brake? Ah, I hope not! I will work to keep my relationship strong!

11) Single/taken/married/divorced? Happily Married

12) Any Children? Yes please. Maybe a six year old and four year old???

Tuesday, August 5, 2008


Life happens and I forget to blog! The past two weeks have been eventful. To start from where I last left off I took an ESL (English as a second language) Training class so that I may take a test and be officially certified. I sat next to a good friend of mine and breezed our way through four days of common sense! Though I did learn little tid bits here and there.

In the process of attending these classes I was reading the Twilight series. Now it is written for teens but I enjoyed just as much. I had heard about it randomly while looking at other Young Adult novels but then Ryan's sisters read the book and loved it. So I decided I would give it a go. Five days later and three books later I read roughly around 1800 pages. It was delicious! In the process of waiting for the fourth book to be out I learned that there will be a movie! I also learned of some interesting websites.
* and if you look at all the friends each character has their own profile. I am embarrassed I have looked long enough on the Internet to know that this exists.

Well I am now done with this saga and will pick it back up in December when the movie is out after Harry Potter movie comes out in November, of course. Jamie, a friend that I have hooked to Twilight, and I have decided to start a book club. I am on the look out for suggestions!

I have also gone to Houston to visit all my college besties. How I miss them! It was great to see everyone and have a good time.

Also, Ryan and I celebrated our one year anniversary. Now just that it itself deserves its own post. This past year has gone by fast but has been wonderful. We went to The Melting Pot and devoured our incredible food. The waiter played his violin for us at the end of the meal. We had some Champagne and one year old wedding cake waiting for us at home but we were just too full to even try and decided to wait until the next night. It tasted wonderful! I need to call my aunt to tell her she did a wonderful job! And thanks mom for letting it occupy your freezer for a year!

Sophie has a sensitivity to food. This is our latest expensive discovery. Which means everything she eats gives her diarrhea. Not fun. Hopefully this new food the vet gave us will work. When I say "gave us" I mean I spent more on that small bag of food than I would on groceries for Ryan and I for a week. Ouch.

So that is pretty much what has been happening. Crazy Crazy. In another two weeks we will officially back at work and wont have much time for anything. I find myself going up to school here and there now so I am not as swamped that first week. I hope all my readers are well and enjoying life.

Friday, July 18, 2008

No Spoil Alert Needed

Yesterday was a long and trying day traveling to Brenham for Grandma Bilski's funeral services. I have to say that St. Mary's did a wonderful job. A topic came up between Ryan and I yesterday that made me think a little bit. Do the priests get used to conducting services, have the been desensitized by being around it more than your average Joe? I don't know how they do it, death, to me isn't something to easily get used to.

After Ryan and I got home we decided that a midnight showing of The Dark Knight would be a nice conclusion for a sad day. I will not spoil anything, but I was thoroughly amazed. I was a little worried that I would fall asleep in the movie, not ending till 2:45! But much to my dismay I was more awake than when the movie started! I want to apologize to God and the people sitting around me because every time I jumped (which happened often) I yelled "Jesus." That is not ok. I need to learn some restraint.These are definitely not the kiddie Bat Man movies I was raised on! "Let me show you a magic trick, now you see the pencil, now you don't".......ugh! Also, I could of sworn I heard, The Joker/Heath Ledger, laugh in my sleep... creepy. Ryan and I are in awe and I want to see it again!!!!

For today Ryan said it best, "I feel like I was up all night drinking." You know your getting old when just staying up late makes you feel like you have a hang over. I even slept in till 10:30! I will probably be lazy for the rest of day. At 2:00 is Sophie's last round of puppy boosters and we get to go to the DOG PARK!!! Should be interesting! Much love to everyone hope this blog finds you well!

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

In Loving Memory.....

On Monday Ryan's grandmother, Grandma Bilski, passed away. She has been suffering from Colon Cancer. I have only known her for a short time but have learned a lot. I have been praying for her and family the last few weeks as we have known that this would be coming soon. We had a scare in May when Grandma Bilski had a blood clot in her leg and since become increasingly weak. Ryan and I had a chance to visit her in Brenhem two weeks ago. Her funeral is Thursday at 2:oo. She has been very involved in Ryan's life, he spent many summers in Brenhem growing up. I know this difficult for Ryan, but he knows that she is now longer suffering or in pain and celebrates her life.

Going through this makes me think of my wonderful Grandma ( Dad's Mom) who passed away when I was in forth grade. I spent a lot of time with her, especially after she moved in with us when I was in the third grade. I wish that I got to have her around a long time. As a ten year old I wasn't able to appreciate how special and important she was. Both of my grandfathers passed away around kindergarten and first grade and do not remember much about them, but get to hear the stories from my parents. My Grammie (Mom's mom) is a very strong women who helps take care of my three cousins. I am lucky to have her in my life.

Picture: Grammie (my mom's mom, me, Ryan, Grandma Muzik (Ryan's mom's mom), Grandma Bilski, Grandpa Bilski

Friday, June 27, 2008

Sophie is already growing up!

I have had Sophie now for almost 4 weeks. In that four weeks she has gained five pounds and sprouted up. She is going to be really tall! She has yet to destroy any shoes or pieces of clothing.... take that back... a moment of silence for the comfortable red hospital socks. The socks are the only piece of clothing destroyed. There have been just a few things she has attempted to destroy or have destroyed: My old phone charger was tampered. Now replaced with a new and better free phone upgrade. A part of the crate cover had disintegrated into thin air... Bobo the petsmart dog has received lipo... a frisbie doesn't exist any more. The blue pee pads are apparently toys to be flung around the house. Ohh and my thumb has endured two puncture wounds. Be careful taking bark away and baby teeth... The biggest and saddest loss is Diego's comfortable lifestyle. I was laying in bed last night feeling sorry for him. He doesn't come cuddle or purr next to us anymore. Instead he gets Sophies butt thrown into his face. I try telling Sophie that Diego is a cat and not a dog and they don't sniff butts. It hasn't sunk in yet. I do have hope that they will come to understand each other and Diego will stop slapping Sophie in the face. We will have to wait and see. In the pictures Sophie is playing with her Aunt Chloe.

Like last summer, anxiety levels about the new school year has unneccesarily rissen and fustration has set in. Last summer just a few weeks before school started our principal was reassigned to another school. This was terrifing to me and in my innexperience and self-doubt was unsure if I would be able to prove myself to a new supervisor. Of course, I shouldn't of questioned myself but I was a sucker for my insecurities as a young teacher. Everything turned out great. Had a wonderful and successful school year. Learned and got to know my new principal and enjoyed working with her. Unfortunately, everything has turned upside down agian. Not only has my principal been reassigned but our assistant as well. So much change at once makes me uneasy. I have always wanted to teach middle school so all this change has prompted me to think about making that transition earlier than I had thought. I am just thinking about it, don't think I will actually do it. I still love my school and my wonderful coworkers and friends so I would be heart broken to leave them. Just something I am contemplating.